For as long as I can remember I had a lot of shame about myself. 

It started with my dad sending me to an expensive private school back in Myanmar, something that he could barely afford to. 

All the kids around me arrived at school with Mercedes and Bentlys, yet my parents could barely pay tuition bills on time. And while my friends lived in mansions, my family lived in a house with thatched roofs (you can see below the kind that I’m talking about), which made me feel so “behind.” 

5 year old me with my brother and dad in front of my childhood home

In terms of looks, I wasn’t proud of myself either. I was more tanned than my mostly mixed Chinese friends (and in Asian countries, like Myanmar) that was looked down upon

And my mom would put this thick Burmese sandalwood makeup on my face which made me look different from other kids– and so I got name-called and bullied for that. 

So as a kid, I felt like a black sheep who wasn’t as good as others around me. 

And to cope with that, I had to “make up” for what I was lacking through academics. I thought that if I was at least good at my studies, people would at least respect me and my parents would express more love for me. 

And they did. But in return, I ended up believing that I was an achiever and my worth depended on it. I was achieving things out of the need to make my parents proud. And with that,  I decided that I wanted to be a medical doctor in the United States.

Yet, despite being a top scholar and getting a 4.0 gpa, I remember crying myself to bed most days. I compared myself to other girls who were smarter and also were more “productive” than me. The voice in my head would tell me that I was still not enough…

Which got even worse after I finished college, when I hit my rock bottom. 

I got myself into a job as a pharmacy technician (for a gap year) and in that job, I made a lot of mistakes… With that, I got scolded by my boss and felt so much shame. Everyday I would deal with a spiral of worthlessness, on top of feeling like the job was a “jail” that I had to go to, just to pay my bills. 


me working as a compounding pharmacy technician which felt like a jail to me

The only thing that I looked forward to back then was the spark inside of me– which back then was my passion for fitness. 

So I followed that calling and through that got a full-ride scholarship for a phd in exercise and nutrition science. It literally was my dream coming true back then because at the time, I needed something that would extend my visa to continue staying in the US. And I wouldn’t be able to survive, had it been another clinical related job that would suck my soul away.

And during that time of pursuing my phd, I had another calling which was to begin coaching and start my online business. 

Which led me down the path of having a series of breakdowns and spiritual awakenings. 

This time around, I couldn’t run away from shame anymore, using my academic “achievements.” My business brought me all the emotional triggers that I was trying to avoid, through rejections, failures, and getting crickets in launches.

Through that, all the feelings of shame, unworthiness, and not being “good enough” which I have felt before during my childhood, resurfaced back again in my life, through my business. 

Just like before, I would compare myself with others and be harsh on myself. This time, it looked like constantly comparing myself with other coaches who were way “ahead” of me in terms of their bank accounts and feeling like I didn’t have the “perfect life” to be able to help people. 

Until I discovered later on, that the truth is, all those things I was trying to achieve did not fulfill my sense of worth

I had this realization after hitting a money goal eventually: a number I had set out a long time in the coming. 

It was a number I thought would change my outlook on life. I thought that once I hit that number in my bank account, I would FINALLY feel worthy, be able to prove to myself that I am now “good enough,” and the voices shaming me in my head will never be heard of again. 

UNTIL THEY DID NOT. 

The only difference was– this time, the bar is now higher. My ego mind now demands even more for me: to earn more money, to be more popular, “more, more, more” to be enough. 

And I saw that this voice wasn’t just in me. I heard it among my clients too (some of whom had made millions) yet still didn’t feel good enough. 

From that experience, I realized that actually how we feel about ourselves is very much an internal thing. How we feel inside cannot be changed by simply changing external circumstances. 

Yes, we can solve it through trying to fix external things (such through manifesting money/men/ “more stuff”etc. ). But until we heal it from within, the cycle of suffering will keep perpetuating. 

It’s like trying to spray green paint on a wilting plant and expecting it to thrive again. The truth is, no matter how much achievements and “stuff” we’re trying to add to our lives, how we feel inside will not go away unless we get to the root of our feelings. 

However, the thing about most self-development work, and even most spiritual manifestation teachings is that most of them only focus on the external. Such as, you getting your dream outcomes. But how you feel inside, WHILE getting to your dream outcomes and AFTER you’ve gotten your dream outcomes are often left out. 

Which is why my work is now centered on helping women experience a life that doesn’t just look good on the outside but also (and more importantly) feels good

Because I know that many women, like myself in the past, are going about life feeling like you’re “lacking” and “missing” something. We are trying to chase/manifest goals from a place of dissatisfaction in the present moment, and it’s an awful place to be in. 

And what I’ve discovered is that actually the feeling of total abundance (i.e. feeling whole, complete, perfect inside of us) has to come first. We have to feel peace, joy, love– all the things we’re looking to experience first. Or else no matter what we chase, it will still never feel enough… 

And that’s what my work is about. It’s about bringing you to the state of ultimate fulfillment. It’s about filling all the “gaps” that are longing to seek inside of you. It’s about taking you to the Nirvana that has always belonged to you (but never knew). 

And from there, I help you create tangible results that come from a place of overflow…

  • Such as having a career/ business that doesn’t only fill your pocket but also fill your heart

  • Such as being in relationships that aren’t just lukewarm but amplify the love you so deserve

  • And even more importantly… you loving yourself like how God loves you and experiencing perfection of this reality everywhere you go

To quote after my clients, it’s like “you’re finally at a place that you’ve been looking for your whole life” 

And I’m grateful that I get to live this now… and create this experience among clients who come into my world.

Angel, are you looking to feel whole, complete, and content within while receiving your desires from a place of overflow?

If so, book a free healing session Here

to find out how I can serve you.